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matilda36I am down. The atmosphere at work is quite heavy due to what happened last weekend, and I have been involved in the thing even if I didn't have any fault. This angers and depresses me.
But it's more than that. Leaving aside the fact that I spend more hours in the day asleep than awake, it's the feeling. Not the feeling that everything will go badly, but an inside feeling. The feeling that I don't care, that nothing matters. I have good fics to read and i barely manage to read.
My main occupations are solitaire and majong. My lanudry pile is scary and I am running out of essentials.
But I don't care. I am just waiting for the next meal and for a time when going to bed is not too indecently early.
But it's more than that. Leaving aside the fact that I spend more hours in the day asleep than awake, it's the feeling. Not the feeling that everything will go badly, but an inside feeling. The feeling that I don't care, that nothing matters. I have good fics to read and i barely manage to read.
My main occupations are solitaire and majong. My lanudry pile is scary and I am running out of essentials.
But I don't care. I am just waiting for the next meal and for a time when going to bed is not too indecently early.
