The others and me

I am feeling a bit naked writing here. I am so used to my small and very personal space on lj that the idea of writing to a slightly different audience unnerves me. Will they like it? Will they be intersted in my small quiet life, in which the greatest adventure is driving to work under the rain or at nighttime? Will they be interested in my struggle with sleep? In the daily conquests that I fight for? In the ways in which having a bipolar disorder, even if I am medicated and relatively stable, influence my life?

Well my therapist has told me that I have to write for myself and not for others, so I'll keep my chin high and keep writing.

In the last post I spoke about how september means less overtime: a colleague is in hospital so I already picked up an extra shift this week and we still don't know how long she'll be in. The good thing as I keep repeating myself is more money. I have some savings, but my car is a bit of junk tormented by my bad driving, so I need emergency funds for repairs and an eventual replacement. My father keeps talking about a getting a brand new car, but I would be happy with a well kept used one.

I am still sleeping (yesterday i worked the morning shift and, aside for an urinary tract infection that add me running to the bathroom every 2 seconds, I had to keep moving or I would have fallen asleep) but this morning I managed to do a bit more beta for my friends and I have organised lunch for friday with a friend. I need to do more things with my friends. So on friday I'll go into town, pay my rent, buy my friend a present (I missed her birthday to sleep) and spend some quality time together.