The others and me

[matilda36]

I am feeling a bit naked writing here. I am so used to my small and very personal space on lj that the idea of writing to a slightly different audience unnerves me. Will they like it? Will they be intersted in my small quiet life, in which the greatest adventure is driving to work under the rain or at nighttime? Will they be interested in my struggle with sleep? In the daily conquests that I fight for? In the ways in which having a bipolar disorder, even if I am medicated and relatively stable, influence my life?

Well my therapist has told me that I have to write for myself and not for others, so I'll keep my chin high and keep writing.

In the last post I spoke about how september means less overtime: a colleague is in hospital so I already picked up an extra shift this week and we still don't know how long she'll be in. The good thing as I keep repeating myself is more money. I have some savings, but my car is a bit of junk tormented by my bad driving, so I need emergency funds for repairs and an eventual replacement. My father keeps talking about a getting a brand new car, but I would be happy with a well kept used one.

I am still sleeping (yesterday i worked the morning shift and, aside for an urinary tract infection that add me running to the bathroom every 2 seconds, I had to keep moving or I would have fallen asleep) but this morning I managed to do a bit more beta for my friends and I have organised lunch for friday with a friend. I need to do more things with my friends. So on friday I'll go into town, pay my rent, buy my friend a present (I missed her birthday to sleep) and spend some quality time together.

Comments

[jjhunter]

Hey matilda36; I saw your over on the Latest things page, and thought I'd drop by to welcome you to Dreamwidth. We are richer for having you here; hope it becomes a comfortable home. Sounds like you'd be a good recruit for fucking_meds (the comm for venting to people who Get It.) If you are looking to get oriented in the general community, or just to connect, you might enjoy stopping by synecdochic's weekly Monday Pride Thread. It's a place to post about your accomplishments from the past week and to cheer other people on. You can find Monday's post here. If you don't want to comment publicly, synecdochic screens all anonymous comments; sometimes just the act of posting is enough to feel part of the community, no?

There's also a 'Follow Friday' feed for, you guessed it, Fridays. It's a great place to go looking for comms and people you might want to watch. What else? kate has put together an excellent general Dreamwidth starter kit.

Hope that's enough to give you a taste of what's out there. Moving to a new place can be intimidating (I know; I just moved into a new apartment), but I think you'll this all worth your while. It takes a lot of courage to open up the way you have here; I really respect that.

Best,
J.J.

[matilda36]

Thank you for the warm welcome. It makes me like this place even more.