Sick leave

 I went to see my doctor yesterday and the first thing he did after I told him the symptoms was to order me some sick leave. He wanted me to start today, but I managed to persuade him to let me start sunday so I am not leaving work in the lurch. I am leaving them a bit in the lurchall the same, but at least there's no Champions next week, so it should be quieter.

He told me also what I have always thought: that i am different from other people so I have to take more care of myself and that means sometimes doing less than other people. It has been a bit of a blow hearing it from him, but it makes me feel less guilty about my...fragility? No not fragilty I'd rather say letargy.

Speaking of letargy, he raised my dosage of Risperidone and warned me that he could make me letargic, but last night I spent all night tossing and turning. This morning it was slightly better, but just. I think it's all about work, my anxiety in explaining to my manager the situation and 3 more days of work, of which 2 are afternoons. And I never sleep well when I work afternoon, like today. No time to wind down like I usually do. Oh well I'll finish Harry Potter.