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Feb. 21st, 2014 11:24 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
matilda36 Had two intense days at work, and realised that I am not able to smile at work anymore. I go with the best intentions, try some smiles, try to be relaxed and joke, and I fail completely.
I close up in myself more and more and I reach the end of my shift completely gone. I know that I am obssessing about work, but work is the only place I have to confront people with this new attitude i am trying to have towards the world.
I want to..... I was gonna say be a good person, but that's not it. I am already a decent human being. I don't want to become a saint because those are made of a different cloth. I am a bit of a gossip, I am a fiend when it comes to parking, I can be a bit judgmental and I spend a lot of time in a dark place, but I am a decent human being. I can do better and that it's something that I m gonna try.
But it's not the issue here what I want to become is a positive person. Somebody who thinks not "Oh I had 10 euros missing from my till" but she thinks "I was a goddess at parking today", who doesn't think: "this is a difficult customer i know it alread"y but she thinks "I already knows what thinks customer wants so i can give it to him".
Switch thinking patterns. But it's hard. Tonight I am going out with some friends from outside work. I know only one person from the group well, so it's gonna be an interesting experience. To see if I can be a positive person in a new environment.
In the meantime I think I am gonna need an afternoon nap. I am soooooo tired.
I close up in myself more and more and I reach the end of my shift completely gone. I know that I am obssessing about work, but work is the only place I have to confront people with this new attitude i am trying to have towards the world.
I want to..... I was gonna say be a good person, but that's not it. I am already a decent human being. I don't want to become a saint because those are made of a different cloth. I am a bit of a gossip, I am a fiend when it comes to parking, I can be a bit judgmental and I spend a lot of time in a dark place, but I am a decent human being. I can do better and that it's something that I m gonna try.
But it's not the issue here what I want to become is a positive person. Somebody who thinks not "Oh I had 10 euros missing from my till" but she thinks "I was a goddess at parking today", who doesn't think: "this is a difficult customer i know it alread"y but she thinks "I already knows what thinks customer wants so i can give it to him".
Switch thinking patterns. But it's hard. Tonight I am going out with some friends from outside work. I know only one person from the group well, so it's gonna be an interesting experience. To see if I can be a positive person in a new environment.
In the meantime I think I am gonna need an afternoon nap. I am soooooo tired.
