Tiring myself out
Dec. 7th, 2009 05:36 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
matilda36Worked hard saturday and sunday. The fatigue was made worse by my constant mental commentary on colleagues and customers and the fact I spent all of Saturday night worried about parking. In the end I didn't have any problem whatsoever in finding parking space. It's just that sometimes I get so lost in my head that I make everything difficult. I make physical situations, simple situations, mentally obsessive and hence tiring. So, yeah a 10 hours shift is tiring, but a 10 hours shift without a smile is much worse.
Things like that really make me think. Make me feel a bit of a failure but at the same time, I am starting to see them and realise them. And I haven't snapped at anybody. So maybe there's hope.
This morning I went to school and I was ok, mentatlly much more relaxed. I just spent the return trip planning my shopping list. But I needed to go and do my shopping so... got home, watched Top Gear and last week Glee (Jury's still out there on this one. I love the songs actually. And Emma.). Now for a change i am listening to Indigo girls and reading threesome porn. Adam/Katy/Kris.
Things like that really make me think. Make me feel a bit of a failure but at the same time, I am starting to see them and realise them. And I haven't snapped at anybody. So maybe there's hope.
This morning I went to school and I was ok, mentatlly much more relaxed. I just spent the return trip planning my shopping list. But I needed to go and do my shopping so... got home, watched Top Gear and last week Glee (Jury's still out there on this one. I love the songs actually. And Emma.). Now for a change i am listening to Indigo girls and reading threesome porn. Adam/Katy/Kris.