Step 5: Therapy?

[matilda36]

Earlier this year I agreed with my psychiatrist that I would attempt psychotherapy again, in the hope that third time's the charm. Now I finally got an appointment and my hackles are up.

First time I went into therapy, I got Prozac and Elektra (you know the crazy girl with a daddy complex who pushed her brother into killing their mum?)

Second time I went into therapy, I wasted three years answering again and again the question: "What are you feeling now?" I get it, my emotions are out of whack, give me the Lamictal already.

This time... I know what I want out of this. Or at least what I think I want. I want to improve my social skills. I want to be able to handle myself and my emotions better in public and to deal with the memories of my mother.

But most of all I want this not to be a waste of time, in which somebody tries to place me in a ready made box and manipulate me into being. Yeah I know not the best frame of mind.

On the bright side, this will look good on my disability benefits application

Should I go?

Comments

[crowgirl13.livejournal.com]

I vote yes.

[matilda36.livejournal.com]

I am going on monday and I'll make an effort. I can do with all the help I can get.

[crowgirl13.livejournal.com]

That's the best attitude to have about it, IMO. You can never have too many allies.

*hugs*
I've got faith in you, honey.

[matilda36.livejournal.com]

Not sure I have faith in me, but a lot of things I have been doing recently are about creating a network for myself.

I have been feeling lonely and I am trying to do something about it.

[barefoot-starz.livejournal.com]

You already know the answer to this. *hugs*

[matilda36.livejournal.com]

*sighs*

I know... still not liking it, but I do.