Getting there
Nov. 21st, 2008 12:06 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
matilda36Speaking of mood swings today I switched from sleepy, heavy me to scatterbrained me. I find it a bit difficult to focus on one single thing and accomplish it, but at least I am awake.
With a few nudges I have managed to do some of the things on my to do list: I paid the nice old gentleman who fixed my computer (and who's still persuaded I am a pervert), called the building manager about the leak in my ceiling (again) , gone to the Post Office and written my Christmas cards.
i still need to clean my bathroom, but I have time to do it on Sunday morning. For a change I start work at 12.
Probably one of the reasons for the swing is probably the approach of the most dangerous part of the month. Getting older, not only my PMS is getting worse and with new symptoms, but they affect my moods dangerously. If i move from perky and scatterbrained to bitchy, restless and pissed off I am going to increase my medication levels.
The thing I hate most is feeling dangerous to myself and to others. I know I am not psychotic or anything, but It makes me feel guilty for being myself.
With a few nudges I have managed to do some of the things on my to do list: I paid the nice old gentleman who fixed my computer (and who's still persuaded I am a pervert), called the building manager about the leak in my ceiling (again) , gone to the Post Office and written my Christmas cards.
i still need to clean my bathroom, but I have time to do it on Sunday morning. For a change I start work at 12.
Probably one of the reasons for the swing is probably the approach of the most dangerous part of the month. Getting older, not only my PMS is getting worse and with new symptoms, but they affect my moods dangerously. If i move from perky and scatterbrained to bitchy, restless and pissed off I am going to increase my medication levels.
The thing I hate most is feeling dangerous to myself and to others. I know I am not psychotic or anything, but It makes me feel guilty for being myself.
