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This morning I dreamt that I was in a room full of silver trinkets, you know those small useless trinkets that make dusting suck an annoying chore?) and I had to clean the whole room, because it was full of dust to the point I had to wash the things and put them back exactly where did I found them, because we were having a party in the room.

I woke up with a complete panick attack and the thought that I have to clean my house, that being small and (mostly) in order is not that bad.

I think it meant a lot of things. That I have a brain too full of thoughts and memories and that's time to have a good cleaning to my brain so I can have a good party, A fresh start in my life. That I have let cumulate too much dust in my brain without using it.

My father was involved so there was a bit ofworry in the going to live with him. He's happier than me where he lives, but we'll be happy together or I'll end up a fat lady stuck in front of a PC?

Too many questions, too many thoughts and I find myself on the verge of tears. I need to actually do something.