So back to bullshitting

Another day spent trying to do what I am supposed to, at least in my mind. But not being happy. I am back where I started faking it. The life I am leading is a fake, a complete fake created to keep my father happy, earn my living and one way or another carry on, always lieing to everybody, including myself. especially myself. I am bullshitting and bullshitting and I am tired and fake and I eat to shut myself up. I need to find the truth inside myself or I will do like Pilate. Enjoy