matilda36

I have left the MSP fandom 2 years ago, but once in a while I like to remember myself why I did it. I still love the band and Nicky Wire is still the sexiest man in a miniskirt, but the fandom has given them a bad name, and rightly so.
Recently on FD, somebody started a tread asking people to post iconic pictures. Very soon, we had 5 pages of people hurt, dying or dead. War, cruelty and the humming of evil all represented.
On page 5, Perdita ( one of the few people I miss) asks why people seems to identify iconic status with violence, and the only answer was because violence is iconic. If I had still been in the fandom I would have answered her: because this is an MSP forum.

I can see why in my then fandom naivety I got involved, so quickly and so deep, producing and participating in enough wank to keep F_W in business for a year. I was low, heading for a fall, angry and desperate. For a while FD filled my hole. It all ended in an horrible wank that left me shattered, and still the general wankery makes me angry,

BUT

visiting today, I realised that I could not do the same now, for the simple reason that I am not that person anymore. I am more centred in my self and my killer rage is being eroded, bit by bit.

Thanks the Goddess and Broccoli.

And after 15 minutes in MSP sploodge, the Stargate fandom is a peaceful lake with no fish in comparison.