Facts and fears.

[matilda36]

Today it has been better than I thought, but it hurts and I have to let it hurt. I have to assume responsibility in a realistic way and this is my problem. For me it has always been a matter of everything or nothing. I had an anger attack Sunday morning. Fact. I should have said simply I am not well I'll stay at home. Fact. I did not want to upset my father. Fact. I did manage to upset my father. Fact. My father (and Giuliana) has denied until now the gravity of my problems. Fact. My father (and Giuliana) thought that asking me to be normal was going to be enough to make me normal. Fact. It's going to take much more work than that for me to behave in a way even close to normal. Fact. When they realised this Giuliana ran away. Fact. My father is terrified that I am going to become like my mother. Fact. I may need to ask Doctor Broccoli to speak with my father. I want him to know the truth and from somebody who is not me. So he can make an informed decision.