Not working

 It's now nearly a week in my enforced holiday and I am not sure it's working. I mostly manage not to think about work and I am balanced enough not to be scared at the idea of going, but I am not sleeping all that I wanted. th meds were supposed to make me drowsy but I am perfectly lucid. Maybe a little less obsssessive, only at night when I try to sleep and I think about M, one of my customers and a right bastard that apparently doesn't like me (and here arrives paranoia).

and here i am writing about things that make me anxious. i wanted this week to be a week of blissful oblivion, but this has not been. Luckily I have hockey and Nightvale to keep me company oh and fanfic, but that's normal. I wanted to sleep and instead I had a boring, normal week, just without work.

The thing is how do I get out of this hole that is getting deeper and deeper?