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Light at the end of the tunnel
Aug. 24th, 2011 02:36 pmYesterday one of my managers, who is also my friend called me in the office and told me that some of my oivertime this moneth will not be paid to me as monay but as vacation.
And that they all had noticed how tired I am so next week I will have only 3 shifts (that means 4 days off, enough strenght to start cleaning the house and getting an haircut) and that the week after I am off.
It was like being thrown a lifeline. I mentioned quite a few time that I feel cared for and protected at work, but this was the first time that my illness was in a side way mentioned. I have been increasingly open about it (although only one of my colleagues knows about it, I am not confident in her discretion) and apparently it does sort of pay off. Just the same way that it pays off being available.
I have also decided to be nicer to the colleague I have problem with. Yesterday I did and it worked. Not think we'll ever be besties but I want to bring peace at work. No gossip, no strife.
My work is a place that makes me feel good and that has to remain.
In the meantime it means that I can rest a bit. That I just need to survive this week and then I got a chance. Maybe if I go rested my doc will decide not to put me on Depakin and I will not have to do the zombie dance. For sure tiredness and work stress make me feel worse.
Even if at this moment I feel too tired to feel bad.
And that they all had noticed how tired I am so next week I will have only 3 shifts (that means 4 days off, enough strenght to start cleaning the house and getting an haircut) and that the week after I am off.
It was like being thrown a lifeline. I mentioned quite a few time that I feel cared for and protected at work, but this was the first time that my illness was in a side way mentioned. I have been increasingly open about it (although only one of my colleagues knows about it, I am not confident in her discretion) and apparently it does sort of pay off. Just the same way that it pays off being available.
I have also decided to be nicer to the colleague I have problem with. Yesterday I did and it worked. Not think we'll ever be besties but I want to bring peace at work. No gossip, no strife.
My work is a place that makes me feel good and that has to remain.
In the meantime it means that I can rest a bit. That I just need to survive this week and then I got a chance. Maybe if I go rested my doc will decide not to put me on Depakin and I will not have to do the zombie dance. For sure tiredness and work stress make me feel worse.
Even if at this moment I feel too tired to feel bad.
