Nov. 12th, 2009

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Just beck from my stage: another good day, they are talking about giving me a semi permanent group to work with. The idea scares me a bit, because I am supposed to learn to teach, but I think I have established a connection with this group, so it may be ok. What better way of learning than doing?

Getting ready to go to work. It's the first time that I try to do both teaching and work in the same day, and I hope I'll come home tired, but ok. Tiredness always scares me. It's one of my main triggers for manic episodes, and we all know how scared I am of manic episodes.

My therapist has a theory: that I tend to keep my mood into slightly depressed because even a "normal" mood makes me think I am getting maniac. That I cut myself off from happiness because in my head I am persuaded the world will end if I get happy. 

*sings off key* It's the end of the world as we know it and I feel fine...

 

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