Compulsive liars
Nov. 9th, 2004 08:53 amI was thinking about people who cannot help telling lies, often to attract attention to themselves. We had one like that in my high school class. The strange thing is that I later met one of her non school friend and she said that outside school she wasn't a liar at all. What I thought at the time is that the competitive atmosphere of high school pushed her to build a web of lies to be somebody in that particular atmosphere, a need that she did not feel outside that particular community.
Am I a liar? Never in big style. Mostly I have lied to hide my absence of a life due to the nervous breakdown that was eating its way inside me. Nowadays I am becoming more and more honest I think. A side effect of therapy. For therapy to work you have to be painfully honest with yourself and with others. So not only no more "I am telling you that I am fine, but in reality I am dyeing inside" or "It's all other people's fault if my life is turning to ashes", but a painful honesty.
I still haven't got all the life I would like, but facing the truth is surely making more of it.
Am I a liar? Never in big style. Mostly I have lied to hide my absence of a life due to the nervous breakdown that was eating its way inside me. Nowadays I am becoming more and more honest I think. A side effect of therapy. For therapy to work you have to be painfully honest with yourself and with others. So not only no more "I am telling you that I am fine, but in reality I am dyeing inside" or "It's all other people's fault if my life is turning to ashes", but a painful honesty.
I still haven't got all the life I would like, but facing the truth is surely making more of it.