matilda36

...I am angry. I want and deserve an apology from my father, the same father that tells me that the important thing is doing things in good faith and that nothing I do is good enough in the same breath.
I have finally realized why punishment is so important for me. Because punishment is anger that finds an outlet. Punishment is an assumption of responsibility for your own mistakes. Doing things in good faith is not good enough if other people get hurt in the process. I paid the price for your good faith for you wanting to do your duty towards a sick woman. Doing your duty in Canada, well away from the sick woman that had free reins on me. I am angry and I am not angry towards myself. I am tired, because anger is a tiring emotion to discover. I do not know if it is going to change my plans, I need more sleep for that, but it's good to know you have done your best.