Still depressed

The work situation is getting better. I spoke with one of my colleagues, a bit of an outsider from all the shit, and she helped me to get out of this paranoid soap opera going on at my workplace. I still can't wait till I go to holiday next week, but I have two shifts I can cope with.

As for the depression.... it's still there, crawling down my back. I am trying to control the tide, but I think that I will not be able to do it. Maybe I need it. I need some strong emotions to wash over me, to make me feel alive and not this ipercontrolled zombie that my meds make me. I need a reboot. A week of craziness. As long as I can pay my car