3 a day

I am now on 3 xanax a day and I have to say that while I am disappointed that I still am not well enough to do without, I am definitely feeling much better. I guess that all the meditation I am doing is doing something, not talking about the fact that I have sorted out one appraisal and written the other. So now I can focus on my future. there are two things I want from my employer and then I am gone. the good news is that I should get them in the next couple of months, so then I can say goodbye to all that and start living my future instead of simply planning it