More happiness

 Sadness is nowadays so embedded in me that I don't know what to do anymore. I keep busy, I have my dad here for most of the week and this means that at least I have company.  Wednesday I have my usual shopping trip with my neighbour and thursday I should go to the fair. It leaves Friday free. If it doesn't snow I may go to see my auntie, or I may just spend the day reading in bed.  OotP is hard read.

But I have to change something deep inside me. I have what I need. I am a bit shaky with money, but for the rest I have what I need, including company. We have talked with my dad about living together and it's getting more and more likely.

But I need to change. I need to have a more positive outlook towards life. I am dieting (is that even a word) and it's bringing me some success, at least on the healthy eating front. That's a start. Saturday and Sunday I went for nice walks (Not today, today it snows and I sent out my dad so I could have some time with my journal.)

What next? What more?