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matilda36 ([personal profile] matilda36) wrote2009-11-20 09:33 am
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Still tired.

Can I reiterate the fact that I am tired? Last night I had one of my tiredness related meltdowns in front of my therapist. It did me good, I think. She scared me with all the change to come, I threw a fit about how change for me it's impossible, we dabbled a bit in the darkest parts of my mind, she told me to go home and get some rest.

I tried. The problem is that I try to sleep, I even fall asleep, but then I start to dream, and dream, and dream. No nightmares, thank good, just stories. Realistic stories, even interesting stories. Sometimes I wake up wanting to know the end. But stories mean no rest.

I am told vivid dreams are a side effect of sleeping medication, my doctor suggested melatonine and i think I'll try that next visit. But in the meantime I need to find alternative ways to relax. This mean porn.

Does anybody have any good recs for me? I'll take most fandoms except for HP and Twilight, and I am in the mood for something long and kinky

I so do not want to go to work today.